Here

Rumana Shaikh
2 min readDec 22, 2020
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Here.

I take responsibility.
Of the past and the present and the future.
Of everything, I have been and I will be.
I take responsibility for the choices and their consequences.

In isolation, I take responsibility for my solitude.
In indecision, I take responsibility for my words.
In rejection, I take responsibility for my ability to recover.
In recovery, I take responsibility for my losses.

In this phase of growth, I take responsibility for the mere mortality of my body.
In this limited existence, I take responsibility for my relentless unlimited soul.

I take responsibility for not having taken responsibility for the things that matter to me the most.
I take responsibility for every single time I accepted less than what I know I deserve.
I take responsibility for lacking courage in the moments I needed courage the most.

Self-respect.
I discover self-respect through the words coming out of my soul.
I embrace self-respect through the unchartered territories that I have already traversed.

Within me, there is a surging, uprising voice that is conquering every voice that has ever made my spirits feel weak, feel timid.
I am discovering self-respect in my voice, as I learn to voice everything I did not voice yet, on my behalf.
I see now, through my limited ability to understand life and the world as it is, only through the mere experience of being human.

On my spectrum of extremities, I discover balance in my self-respect.

Here I am myself.
Here I am alive.
Here I have self-respect.
Here I have courage.
Here I am free.
Here I am speaking my truth.
Here I am walking yet another new territory.
Here I am alone.
Here I am complete.
Here, I sit with my self-respect.

Here, I find myself complete.

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Rumana Shaikh

The only freedom is the freedom to allow yourself to be the best version of self, and hence allow change. Ponder, read, write, explore and grow.