Romancing my life away!
I have this kiddish giddish feeling in my tummy! A funny feeling! Like when I had it when I was a little girl, frolicking away singing songs and dancing alone.
Always in my own world, I have this little piece of land where I would step out of our home and be dancing away from one of the walls to another, always staying in, never going outside of those boundaries.
If a strange man approached our compound gate, I’d run into the home and hide away, watch from behind the curtain to be sure the danger is gone. Nobody could make me come out of my safe place until I was sure I was safe.
Then I’d be back to singing and dancing ❤️
No, I did not want to play with the kids on the block! I did not need friends! I also did not want to keep playing always with my siblings. They were two peas in a pod, and little Rumii the solo one, the one in her own world.
Believe me, I am still that solo one, the one in her own world. Nobody can bring me out if my safe hiding space, my home, unless I want to come out of it. And when I do, I sing, I dance, I play.
That kiddish giddish beautiful feeling in my tummy, like a fairy or a butterfly fluttering her magic wings, and showering on me little Rumii so much magic ✨
In the middle of a serious negotiation, all I want to do is pull my guitar and start strumming and singing. May be called “absolutely cuckoo’s voice going kookoo” 😂
But come on look at the day today; with all this rain that makes me not want to go to school! Just sit by the window and catch the little droplets of rain watching them fall! Oh how much I loved dancing in the rain!!
Little tiny feet running two flights of stairs to the top of the house, the terrace, my one hiding space under the big blue sky!
But when it rained, I’d lose all inhibitions and dance and dance and dance till I was soaking wet, shivering with cold, sneezing even, and smiling from ear to ear! I was dazzled with the pearl-drops of rain!
But today I have to put make up on, get dressed, put my best foot forward and step out into the “real world”. Oh this real world, the thief of my joy and the root of my pain.
So for now, as I dance away deciding what dress to wear and which lip color to out on, how dark my eye liner should be and which pair of shoes to wear, what bag to carry and how much perfume to put on! For now as I prepare myself to put on this mask of a grown up woman, let me dance my love away, as it rains and it rains!!
This kiddish giddish feeling in my tummy, making me smile and want to play in the vast field of my heart’s escapade!!
